Thursday, January 04, 2007

Kitten dreams

I almost never dream (scientists tell us that everyone dreams, but I only wake up knowing that I've had one about once a year), but since I've been on antidepressants it's been happening more and more. Well I had a great dream the other day... I lost dad back in November; and in this dream I was leaving the bank after some sort of bullshit hassle and met dad just coming in. When I told him how much I missed him he said "I know", then went on to tell me how worried he was about mom's being alone now. We discussed our concerns as we walked home, and he held my hand as we crossed the golf course. I have no recollection of the rest of the conversation, but the feeling of peace was overwhelming and stayed with me long after I woke up. (Incidentally, I woke up to discover a cat asleep on my hand beside the pillow.) I shared this with mom and she was happy, shedding a tear as she said "He never talks to me in my dreams." Thank you kitty, thank you.